Hey Blog!

Dear Blog,

How I wish I could write something blog-awesome but I'm tamad. Facebook and Twitter are now teeming with people I do not particularly like to see some of my personal posts. Well, I just want to share that this is THE LONELIEST time I've ever felt in my entire 25 years of existence.

Lonely as in LONELY. Rock-bottom lonely. If I were suicidal and irresponsible, I would have long been gone.

To be honest, suicide did come across my mind a couple of times recently but I still find it NOT cool. One reason is that there's no pain-proof suicidal method. I would like to look good when I die. I don't fancy having a bubbly mouth or a bloody wrist when my dead body would be discovered. If I stuff myself with high cholesterol, fatty foods 30 minutes before I sleep, will that be considered as suicidal, if and when I'll experience a Rico Yan?

I am seriously thinking that maybe, just maybe, I have a psychological disorder. I'm having difficulty handling problems, I'm stupid to think that everything would be just a breeze. At least THAT i have already realized. I must really have ZERO EQ.

It may be a good idea to see a shrink. I might just do that when I start earning again. I will do that in another hospital, of course!

This has certainly made me feel better. I might check in again soon.

'til then, Blog!